It reminds me that I have a life outside of the internet, that I have friends in the real world, that I actually CAN be a functioning person in society and that look: here is proof of all of that. Look. I am with people. Doing human things…. With people.
It’s a silly thing to get excited about, but I just really, really love that there are pictures of me out there being alive.
So the first month we were together and we would hold hands, it was really uncomfortable. A little while later, we adapted to a different hand-hold to compensate for my inability to spread my fingers wide enough to fit between all of his. My pinky and ring-fingers rest between his pointer, middle and ring fingers, then my pointer and middle finger fit comfortably in the gap between his thumb and pointer. :D
It looks really weird holding hands with myself like that… But because his hands are so large in comparison, it’s actually really comfortable. :)
There’s that saying about “when I miss you, I look at the spaces between our fingers and remember how yours fit there perfectly.”
It’s a nice saying- the fact that there’s someone who can fit with you perfectly… but I love how non-“perfect” our hand-holding was/is. To me at least, it’s a little thing to remind us that we can overcome obstacles together. That together, we can think of solutions to get by, even if they are a little unconventional.
It’s perfect… for us.
I don’t always communicate that point clearly though, so I tend to just piss people off instead. I’m super sorry about that.
13 for my favorite number (and birth number… ok no actually my fav number is 613.. but w/e)
dragon for me: fiery at times, a little hot headed, humble but proud (can you be both?) and always up in the clouds
1 [ attrib. ] of or relating to drama or the performance or study of drama : the dramatic arts | a dramatic society.
2 (of an event or circumstance) sudden and striking : a dramatic increase in recorded crime.
• exciting or impressive : he recalled his dramatic escape from the building | dramatic mountain peaks.
• (of a person or their behavior) intending or intended to create an effect; theatrical : with a dramatic gesture, she put a hand to her brow.
yarp. it’s just me. :)
"Unlike my mother-"
Pearl. Unlike your mother, what? Stop that. What are you saying?
I-I don't know!
Where the fuck are we in the scene!?
I DON'T KNOW!
Shuddup and stop panicking child. "I CAN'T SLEEP"
IT'S CLOSE ENOUGH! "HESTER, WHO USUALLY SITS AT THE WINDOW-" (continues with rest of monologue)
(off stage a few minutes later)
what the hell were you doing out there?
It was a good thought......
Yes, but it's not the right one, is it? ..Wait.. IS it?? "Unlike my mother, I don't sleep at all that night" .... That's... Huh. :|
I... don't know for sure.... It... sounds... kinda right.. but... :|
It's fine. Just... Don't go off on your own like that again, ok? Ah. We're almost on again.
CONTRARY TO MY USUAL HABIT, I DON'T SLEEP AT ALL THAT NIGHT!!!!
OTL yup. That's how it goes. OTL now shuddup let's go, let's go, let's go.
Example: Danial Radcliff’s comment about girls trimming their pubes and how they should have SOME hair down there.
Ok. You like it, and clearly others agree that it’s “fucking creepy” to have bare hair, otherwise they wouldn’t’ve said it/agreed….
Ok. You dis-like it and enjoy shaving/ keeping the down there area clean of hair….
Fantastic. You each have an opinion. What difference does it make? Why do people have to argue about other people’s opinions?
And here I am arguing because when people point out that a celebrity is “policing” how women should act/dress/etc… it irritates the shit out of me. What difference does it make? It’s how they feel. Just because they are a public figure, ANYTHING they say can be taken as “policing” a topic. It does not matter what they are saying. A celebrity can say that dipping fishsticks in custard is the only way to eat fishsticks…and GUESS WHAT? SOMEONE will suddenly like fishsticks in custard, and SOMEONE is going to condemn the celebrity for being so absolute about the matter.
I can’t even remember what I’m whining about. Point is I have an opinion and it sounds like I’m condemning someone else’s opinion which then makes me a hypocrite. :| I have this issue at least 3 times every day. Today, the main one just happened to be the DanRad comments.
Which is horribly ironic since I wanted nothing to do with this play, and I hated Pearl so much in the beginning. I don’t know. I just… I found her. She’s one of the only characters I’ve really had to create and build. Although she is a lot like me, we have our differences and I hope that the audience feels like I’m becoming someone else on stage. I think by the time Scarlet Letter is finished, Pearl will be that special character for me. The special character that I can be proud of no matter how the audience receives my portrayal of her.
I am genuinely proud of something I’m creating on stage.
It’s been years since I’ve felt this way.
…actually… everything I do in ballet could use some serious work. lmfao. My ballet goal this week is to be able to do 5 consecutive “perfect” single pirouettes by next friday. :D
And then when I nail it, I have to do something silly like this. lol
….yeah… apparently… I was really bored at Dara’s in May 2011 when I took that…. e_e
TEETH APPRECIATION POST UNDER THE CUT WOOOOOOOOO
this ties in with Fact 21 about cuddling
This morning I woke up to being a middle spoon. :3 Lorenzo was the big spoon, and Bagheera was my little spoon. I REALLY did not want to move from my bed this morning. xD
It’s a fun medium to work with! ^_^